The job search...

Nothing new to report about hot yoga, because I haven't been since Tuesday. Need to work on that. In fact, I'm going to look at tomorrow's schedule RIGHT NOW. OK, after looking, the 5pm class will work the best with my schedule. Tomorrow I'm starting a 3 week sock class with my sister, Tina. It's on Saturday mornings and I'm VERY excited to try it! So yoga later in the day makes the most sense.

I've been spending some time looking for a job this week, with very little success. I'm feeling discouraged, but honestly I haven't been looking for all that long. In the past I've just kind of fallen into a new job without really having to make much of an effort. I know I've been lucky and now I'm having to face the fact that it may not be so easy this time around. I've had one interview, sent some resumes out, and emailed a woman that gave me a job offer a few months ago that I declined at the time because of the depression. No dice so far. My ego feels a little bruised when I think about my work life. My past employer doesn't want me back because as a result of the depression I became unreliable and they don't want to take the risk with hiring me back. I can't really blame them, I'm not sure myself of how reliable I will be in the future. But still, it stings. Pretty bad. My past workplace was like a second home. And I miss it.

Today I met with my psychiatrist for the first time since I completed my course of ECT treatments. He thinks I look brighter and I assured him I'm feeling brighter as well. We're not going to make any changes with my meds at this point...if it ain't broke don't fix it, right?? At least that's our take on the present situation. I did ask him about relapse and the statistics available on it. He said that 50% of people relapse within a year after finishing ECT. Hmmm, this made me feel a little sick to my stomach. But one option is to always go in once a month for maintenance should it be needed. For the time being, we just wait and see.

Alrighty, I'm glad I wrote an entry tonight. It definitely helps to let some of my worries and concerns out from inside my head. Over and out.