My return to blogging...

I recently decided that I'm going to work on blogging more regularly. I got sidetracked because of ECT and the podcast I started. But blogging has it's benefits. The main one for me being accountability. I have not been back to my yoga studio yet. I intended to go on Saturday but experienced some anxiety about being in the room by myself after such a long time away. I guess I'm worried I'll faint or something. So I planned a yoga date with my friend, Linda (thank you Linda for the support!), for Tuesday. Hopefully having someone on the mat next to me that I know and feel comfortable around will quell some of that nervousness.

I talked with my therapist Denice about going back to work and we both agreed it could be beneficial if I start out slowly and look for a part time job. Certainly this is a very wise approach to returning to work, right?? So what do I do the very next day? You guessed it. I applied for a full time job. Brilliant, just brilliant. WTF is wrong with me? So in my defense I liked this particular job listing because it gave the impression of providing a positive work environment. You know what I mean, I got a good vibe. But it is full time. And this is exactly what my therapist and I discussed avoiding...can't wait to share this with her. Especially since I got an interview for the position on Thursday. Eh, oh well, I'll try not to look too far into the future...a lot can happen between now and getting an actual offer.

Let's see, what else? In regards to my knitting I was making nice progress on a shawl for my mother-in-law, Kathy. But then there was an unfortunate slip that resulted in an error I could not fix. This was fairly devastating to me since I was probably a good third of the way done with it...further along on a project than I've been in awhile. So I frogged it and am now working on a scarf for myself actually. It has a lace body with fringe and beads. I'm really into incorporated beads with my knitting lately. I'm not very far along at all since I just started a couple hours ago.

What I've been up to...

Haven't been here in awhile. Not sure why, probably has something to do with the fact that I haven't been going to hot yoga, and therefore, have little to report. But there's been other stuff happening and I might as well share. I'm on my third and what appears to be my final week of ECT (electro-convulsive therapy). The treatments have definitely helped. My brain feels as if it's been zapped (literally) awake. Unfortunately, this improvement doesn't come without a price. Your short term memory takes quite a hit. Following a treatment I struggle with remembering the moments, minutes, hours before I was anesthetized. It sucks. You just feel a little "off". I feel as if I've gotten what benefit I can from it, now it's time to work on the other stuff again...hot yoga, DBT group, individual therapy, and spending time with my friends. I think I'll make my grand re-entrance (ha) to the yoga studio Saturday at noon (Jenn, my favorite instructor is teaching). Hopefully this will work out with our holiday weekend plans: we're going to see Adrian's parents up north. I've been working on knitting a shawl for his mother but I just don't think I'm going to have it done by the weekend, nerds.
I really have the itch as of late to go back to work. Badly. I'm going to talk to my therapist, Denice, today to see what she thinks. I'm so impatient...I just want to get on with living my life.

Officially podcasting!

Take a listen if you'd like...the first recording is simply an introduction. I hope people like it! :-)

http://allthingsjoy.podbean.com/

A share...

A dear friend sent this to me by email and I wanted to pass it on to someone, so here it is:


I will never bring about world peace. I will not save the rain forest.

I'm not a brain surgeon and I'll never transplant an organ to save a life.

I don't have the ear of a powerful politician or world power.

I can't end world hunger.

I'm not a celebrity, and God knows I'm not glamorous!

I'm not looked up to by millions around the world. Very few people even recognize my name.

I'll never win the Nobel prize.

I'll never save the rain forest or end global warming.

There are a lot of things that I'll never do or become.

But today I placed a dog!

It was a small, scared, bundle of flesh and bones that was dropped off in a shelter by unfeeling people that didn't care what happened to it, but yet who were responsible for it even having existence in the first place.

I found it a home.

It now has contentment and an abundance of love. A warm place to sleep and plenty to eat. A child has a warm fuzzy new friend who will give them unquestioning devotion and teach them about responsibility and love.

A wife and mother has a new spirit to nurture and care for. A husband and a father has a companion to sit at his feet at the end of a hard day of work and help him relax and enjoy life. And a sense of security, that when he is gone all day at work, that there is a protector and a guardian in his home to keep watch over his family.

No, I'm not a rocket scientist but today I saved one of God's precious creatures. Today, I made a difference!

I Am An Animal Rescuer

My job is to assist God's creatures

I was born with the need to fulfill their needs

I take in new family members without plan, thought or selection

I have bought dog food with my last dime

I have patted a mangy head with a bare hand

I have hugged someone vicious and afraid

I have fallen in love a thousand times

and I have cried into the fur of a lifeless body

I have Animal Friends and friends who have Animal Friends

I don't often use the word "pet"

I notice those lost at the road side

And my heart aches

I will hand raise a field mouse

And make friends with a vulture

I know of no creature unworthy of my time

I want to live forever if there aren't animals in Heaven

But I believe there are!

Why would God make something so perfect and leave it behind?

We may be master of the animals,

But the animals have mastered themselves

Something people still haven't learned

War and abuse make me hurt for the world

But a rescue that makes the news gives me hope for humankind

We are a quiet but determined army

And making a difference every day

There is nothing more necessary than warming an orphan

Nothing more rewarding than saving a life

No higher recognition than watching them thrive

There is no greater joy than seeing a baby play

who only days ago, was too weak to eat

I am an Animal Rescuer

My work is never done

My home is never quiet

My wallet is always empty

But my heart is always full

In the game of life, I have already won!

~ Annette King Tucker ~