Friday, April 16, 2010
The past few days...
This week has been a tough one. I haven't been to yoga since Monday. Nothing in particular happened or is requiring my immediate attention or time. I've hit a slump. I know these slumps are going to happen. This isn't my first and it certainly won't be my last. Most of my time has been spent at home. In bed. This afternoon I got up and cleaned the house for 4 hours. I'm not sure where that spurt of energy came from but I used it until it ran out. And now I'm back in bed. I've been taking more klonipin (an anti-anxiety med) than I'd ordinarily take. I like the feeling of numbness and apathy that it brings. I know this isn't a great trend to start. I'm not sure what's next for me. I keep expecting the next day to be a little better than the last. For now, I'm letting my depression dictate my days. Until I decide to become more involved in this decision, it wins.
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I so know how you feel! Just be happy with the progress you've had and feel your body out. You will know the difference between want to take the Kl for escaping and taking it for necessity. Whenever I slow down I feel like I'm about to give up, but then I think about how little I used to do and bored I would be to go back to doing nothing. You just need a break from the stress and start it again next time!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope it gets better... I'm in a bit of a yoga slump this week too but I think it's because I'm focusing a bit more on running (1/2 marathon is in 2 weeks, eeks!) and it's my time of the month and was feeling sluggish this week.
ReplyDeleteHopefully back at it next week... for you too!