Gonna stop the count.

Greetings readers,

I've been away awhile because I haven't had any hot yoga related news to share with you all. Today I did go to a class, the first in 10 days. The past couple weeks have been really tough for me. My depression got severely worse which I do attribute partly to NOT going to yoga. But also my negative thinking and ruminating have had a major effect on my mood. So lots of my time has been spent in bed, crying, going to therapy, texting/calling my therapist when I'm not at therapy (lol, god I'm lucky), and figuring out other treatment plans with my psychiatrist. My doctor and I both agree that medication isn't cutting it. He did make some changes to doses and added Abilify to the mix. However, the big news is I'm going to be starting ECT in a week. I've questioned many doctors about the treatment and have always been discouraged from pursuing it (even by my current doc). It's still a controversial treatment and the medical community is largely at odds on it...probably because they aren't sure exactly why it works. But it is effective (70-75%) and I think I can handle the side effects. I think my psychiatrist became much more supportive of the idea when he saw the state I was in this week...complete agony is a good description. So that's where things are at currently.

Class today was good, quite full actually. I got pretty dizzy when laying on my back and I think this is probably due to the medication changes. The month I paid for ends on May 3rd and I don't think I'll be going much after that for the next few weeks. My ECT doctor said exercise is OK, but not to work too hard. So I think I might be sticking with walks and the gym if my mood allows. Take it a little easy. In other news it looks like I am going to start a podcast! I'm pretty excited about it. I've already recorded the first one and my husband and I are just working on figuring out how to get it up and running. So I will be back with a link for anyone that would like to hear it...soon I hope!