This evening I'm experiencing quite a bit of sadness and irritability. Mainly with myself. I went to the gym this afternoon and did 45 minutes of cardio. When I got home I was hungry and probably waited too long to eat, which can cause a drop in my mood. My husband and I were arguing about what to do for dinner. And as is usually the case, we weren't in agreement. He wanted to go out and I wanted to stay home. This is a common issue that arises for us as a couple. Because of the depression I rarely want to go out or do anything. This frustrates him and then I get upset that he doesn't "get it" and is mad at me for something that feels out of my control. So we didn't go out and I feel guilty and angry about it. And what drives me even more crazy is that when I get into these moods I'm quite often bored. Going out WOULD help. It's an on-going battle. Who will win?? The depression and anxiety or the piece of me that wants to be free of this.
I'm missing my Bikram classes and plan to go tomorrow. The past two days I chose not to go due to the teacher schedule. I'm just so concerned/anxious about having a new teacher I avoid the studio completely.
OK, I could use a laugh, so here's my daily dose of Lemon:
Liz: What’s going on, business got ya down?
Jack: Business doesn’t get me down, business gets me off.
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